Let's Go For a Walk

Please, just take me out of my house for a little while.
I have so much stuff on my mind and I need it to be cleared. But I am so not good at letting people know how I feel and letting people in to know what is happening. I truly just want to get out of my house, but of course as soon as I make plans to go my mom tells me to stay home and visit with my aunt, who is out with my sister for who knows how much longer! I have spent the must freaking time with her ALL WEEK while McKenzie and Rory are going out and doing things. But no the one time I want to go out I can't because I haven't "spent enough time with my aunt" this is so pathetic. I want to get away for awhile. I want to have a good talk about anything and everything just to put me in a better mood. I only wish I knew everything from the other persons perspective, that certainly would relieve a lot. But for now I go through with this break, hoping a stop to it will come soon. I need a new friend, that would just be wonderful.

I'm so done,

I have really had this problem where I try to please everybody. I'm so done with it. I can't do it. I should have learned this sooner, but what can ya do? I really don't need to please anyone except myself, no ones opinion really matters except mine. This was brought up because one of my friends was I guess "judging" me for the kind of music I listen to, like I was "one of those people" which got me pretty ticked because she "was one of those people" a couple months ago. Like woah, really? You always say your mom is so judgmental and you hate it...but seriously look what you are doing! Anyways I'm not mad at you, just to get that out there, I'm just upset that I'm being stereotyped into one of those people. Honestly I DO NOT CARE if I am one of those people or not, I can listen to whatever music I want and be who I am, I don't have to be what you want me to be. So from now on, though it will be difficult, I am going to try to not care about what everyone has to say about me and not try to please everyone, I want to be able to reach my own individuality peak. Oh and friend of mine, Rory says you are so kool. (Rory has different levels of being cool, kool being the first level)
Just a few other things
Dear secret: I am glad to know that we aren't friends I guess. The fact that you come up to the table and say "I can't find my friends, so I will sit with you guys" really shows your true light, thanks.
Dear Jenna: I am very much happy about how close we are getting and how much we are hanging out again. Just Dance makes my life.
Dear secret: It kills me to know you like her but you act like you like me anyways.