I love my baby sister

She is probably the cutest being of my life. She is two months old as of December 21st.

O Canada

For winter break I am in Canada, probably my favorite place on earth. First week, I am in Lethbridge with my grandparents and cousins, second week I am in Calgary with my friends.
I am already really enjoying this winter break, one for probably a strange reason. My phone is off. For verizon charges roaming fees in Canada. Anyways, having my phone off takes away most of my worries of the drama in America, not having to worry about it. So I can focus my time with the family and friends I haven't seen in ages, contrary to focusing all my time to my phone who is connected to the friends I see everyday. Another reason i am really enjoying myself is my little cousins Sam and Lizzie. Sam is 7 and Lizzie is 9, they are the spunkiest kids I have ever met in my entire life, they make me laugh until I want to die it hurts so much. I love our random fist pump sessions I have with them, and how opinionated they are, and how they are so loud and silly, for a lack of a better word, it makes me really miss living 2 hours from them. Another thing I love about my cousins, all four of them, is how active they are. They are so scheduled and have all kinds of sports and hobbies they do everyday at the University, it truly cracks me up. I would hate to live with such a strict schedule though, it just makes me smile seeing how happy they are with it.
So quick little realization I got from Hailey Bradfords blog (http://haileybradford.blogspot.com/2010/12/dont-miss-this-or-it-or-me-for-that.html) one of the realizations she had was that she has her whole life to find someone. Okay so it got me thinking about high school, and the desperate people in it. A lot of people I know are so very desperate to have a boyfriend and/or girlfriend, they think if hey can't get one in high school they will be single for the rest of their lives. I thought that was pretty pathetic. High school is a mere four years of your life, in some aspects it does make or break your life, in this aspect it does not. You do not need a partner to be happy, and honestly if you are strong and single you will probably be more happy. Note: It is not wrong to have a boyfriend/girlfriend in high school, its being desperate to have one that is wrong to me at least. Anyways, I have never been the "girlfriend" type, more of the best friend. And I like it that way. I would much rather be the best friend to a whole bunch of different guys than be secluded to one person, excluding me from a whole bunch of other amazing guys. I am a much better best friend anyways, when it comes to being a girlfriend things just get awkward. HA. So yeah, this is not a jab at people who are currently in relationships, not at all, just a jab at the ones who waste all their time wanting to be in one and not caring about anything else in the world.

Here's A Blog

I have always been a better listener than a talker. So good that I am really good at eavesdropping, good thing? Probably not, but I have the skill nonetheless. But anyways, I am not really good about talking about what's going on in my life, especially when there is something dramatic going on in my life. Like recently, the past few months I have been going through something I guess you could say its similar to heartbreak, and I was thinking, who even knows about my situation? There was the person who is in the situation with me, who doesn't even know my side let me add, and then there's my sister, who also doesn't even know everything. I realized I am not good at talking about my feelings, not even to my best friends. They didn't know and they still don't know what happened. I am really closed within myself, I am not good at opening up to people per say. But I am really good at listening. I love to hear what is going on in other peoples lives, I love being the one to help them. I love knowing that someone can come to me when they have a problem. But I can't do the same to them. I am so good at trying to help other people with their problems but I literally suck at trying to help myself with my own. I haven't had someone I have told absolutely everything to in quite awhile, and I'm hoping to meet someone soon, someone new that would be that person to help me get over this thing I have. Jenny Jensen was my go-to girl for awhile when I was going through some hard things with my old best friend, she was my new person, I had barely even known her when she started helping me. I miss talking to you Jenny I truly do, we have both gone away from what we had binding us together, and I miss it. Anyways, another thing I noticed, if I am talking to someone about my problems, its friend drama, never relationship stuff. I never tell anyone who I like, fearing if I tell them it will ruin everything that I might have with the guy I like. (Oh and for the record, I do not like anyone right now). Anyways usually with my friends if you like them, you end up going out with them. Thats not how it always goes for me, so I usually choose not to tell them. This has its ups and downs and it sucks.
Next thing I would like to blog a little about is how much I love having guy friends. The ones I can text all day not worrying about liking them or eventually falling for them. Guys are the only people I like to text nowadays anyways. They are the ones who always put a smile on my face when I am around them. I don't even have to have a crush on them for it to happen. Don't get me wrong I love my girls, and they make my day everyday and I love them bundles, but its just something about having guy friends that makes my life a little more exciting.
One last thing, I love little kids and youtube videos about them.

Let's just get this clear.

Okay so about 99% of the population (exaggeration, duh) knows that I DO NOT LIKE (like) PEOPLE THAT OFTEN. Yeah and they wonder why. Well here is how it goes... I don't like opening up to guys, it takes A LOT. And normally when I open up to the them it generally means I like them. But every single time I open up, this great spark lasts for a couple weeks and then suddenly its dead and I end up being second best and the guy RANDOMLY has this other girl in his life that he chooses in the end. This has happened more than once. And you wonder why I do not like to like people that often...

Let's Go For a Walk

Please, just take me out of my house for a little while.
I have so much stuff on my mind and I need it to be cleared. But I am so not good at letting people know how I feel and letting people in to know what is happening. I truly just want to get out of my house, but of course as soon as I make plans to go my mom tells me to stay home and visit with my aunt, who is out with my sister for who knows how much longer! I have spent the must freaking time with her ALL WEEK while McKenzie and Rory are going out and doing things. But no the one time I want to go out I can't because I haven't "spent enough time with my aunt" this is so pathetic. I want to get away for awhile. I want to have a good talk about anything and everything just to put me in a better mood. I only wish I knew everything from the other persons perspective, that certainly would relieve a lot. But for now I go through with this break, hoping a stop to it will come soon. I need a new friend, that would just be wonderful.

I'm so done,

I have really had this problem where I try to please everybody. I'm so done with it. I can't do it. I should have learned this sooner, but what can ya do? I really don't need to please anyone except myself, no ones opinion really matters except mine. This was brought up because one of my friends was I guess "judging" me for the kind of music I listen to, like I was "one of those people" which got me pretty ticked because she "was one of those people" a couple months ago. Like woah, really? You always say your mom is so judgmental and you hate it...but seriously look what you are doing! Anyways I'm not mad at you, just to get that out there, I'm just upset that I'm being stereotyped into one of those people. Honestly I DO NOT CARE if I am one of those people or not, I can listen to whatever music I want and be who I am, I don't have to be what you want me to be. So from now on, though it will be difficult, I am going to try to not care about what everyone has to say about me and not try to please everyone, I want to be able to reach my own individuality peak. Oh and friend of mine, Rory says you are so kool. (Rory has different levels of being cool, kool being the first level)
Just a few other things
Dear secret: I am glad to know that we aren't friends I guess. The fact that you come up to the table and say "I can't find my friends, so I will sit with you guys" really shows your true light, thanks.
Dear Jenna: I am very much happy about how close we are getting and how much we are hanging out again. Just Dance makes my life.
Dear secret: It kills me to know you like her but you act like you like me anyways.

Halloween Pictures/I hate my camera flash

Avery Richardson

Born October 21, 2010 at 12:16 AM
7 LBS 12 OZ

6 in the morning

I am an early bird and I always wake up no later than like 7, I love waking up early, before anyone else is awake, come downstairs get on the laptop, listen to music and just think. It is a prefect time just to think about everything going on in my life, the morning is when I clear my thoughts and figure everything else. I don't have to worry about anyone distracting me because everyone is all asleep.

"When I was a boy my grandfather died, and he was a sculptor. He was also a very kind man who had a lot of love to give the world, and he helped clean up the slum in our town; and he made toys for us and he did a million things in his lifetime; he was always busy with his hands. And when he died, I suddenly realized I wasn't crying for him at all, but for all the things he did. I cried because he would never do them again, he would never carve another piece of wood or help us raise doves and pigeons in the backyard or play the violin the way he did, or tell us jokes the way he did...He was individual. He was an important man...He did things to the world. The world was bankrupted of ten million fine actions the night he passed on... Granger stood looking back at Montag. Everyone must leave something behind when he dies, my grandfather said. A child or a book or a painting or a house or a wall built or a pair of shoes made. Or a garden planted. Something your hand touched someway so your soul has somewhere to go when you die, and when people look at that tree or flower, you're there. It doesn't matter what you do, he said, so long as you change something from the way it was before you touched it into something that's like you after you take your hands away. The difference between the man who just cuts lawns and a real gardener is in the touching... The lawn cutter might as well not have been there at all; the gardener will be there a lifetime."

In english class we are reading Fahrenheit 451 and this excerpt was my favorite part of the whole book. It was very inspiring to me. It made me think about my life and what I am doing in the world that people will remember, if I am doing something in this world that will leave a mark, a good mark. You have to make something of your life, or it will be pointless. This excerpt really touched my heart in a strange way. I have experience death of a family member but I was never really close to them, so it wasn't that much of a big deal. It touched my heart because I started thinking about my brother E.J. and how my world would crumble to pieces if something happened to him in Brazil. I thought of all the things I would miss doing with him, all the things I can't do with him now because he is in Brazil. I know with all my heart that my brother has made a mark in this world, on me. Everyone always tells me that I remind them so much of E.J and I am so grateful that I could be that person that would make people think of E.J, now that he is in Brazil or if anything ever happened to him.
Ms. Jackson was talking about things in the world that we could leave to make our life worth living. Most people would say like really big things like being Einstein, or winning an Oscar. Ms Jackson said that yes those would have us be remembered but it is the smaller things that count. She told us this story that I cannot remember all that well but it was about this guy who was just awarded with being Valedictorian of his graduating class, in his speech he said he was clearing out his locker so his mom wouldn't have to go through all his stuff when he committed that suicide, but then a guy he had never really been in contact with him ever told him congratulations for being Valedictorian and just said hi and told him how proud he should be. That one guy that just happened to walk by in the hallway saved the Valedictorians life. It is the smallest things that will get us remembered. Sure, everyone knows that but in the back of all our minds we are like "seriously that won't happen to me, my acts won't really count" its bull crap that we even think about that stuff. Just be the good friend to someone. If someone is sore and crying, help them. Tell someone you might not even know congratulations for having a great honor. This  stuff will get you remembered, even more than being super smart or winning a huge award.

Do something in the world, don't let your life waste away.

Strawberry Daiquiri Sobe's, Salsa Verde Doritos, Razzles and Rome is what's up tonight.

Karma

In any-town we had a discussion about, karma.
Karma is as most of you know "what goes around come around"
Karma is like a person, in my mind at least. Karma has a good side and a bad side. There is good karma and bad karma. In other words, if you do something good, then good will come back to you. Or for the bad side, if you do something bad, then bad will come back to you.
Karma is pretty much a state of opinion. Some people believe in karma, others don't. Mr. Kane is a strong believer in karma. He always tries to do good things to keep his karma in balance.
As the group discussion continued we sort of got into the topic of karma being used with selfishness. Do you do good deeds, just so you can get good back? Sounds sort of selfish right? Katlyn Goldwood brought up a good point, or at least I think so, she said something around the lines of "sometimes its hard not to be selfish because almost everything you do can be turned around into something selfish" I think if you are one of the strong believers in karma then it seems like you do good deeds just so you can get the good back to you. Maybe you didn't intentionally go into that good deed with being selfish in your mind, you were just subconsciously being selfish. And honestly, I don't think that is a bad thing. If you are being the slightest bit selfish but you are helping someone or making someone's day better, I don't think being selfish matters that much at all. As humans its hard for us not to be selfish. Its genetically installed into us, maybe installed more intensely in others but we all have it. Being selfish is a bad thing also, don't get me wrong. But its being selfish when its seriously only you in mind. If that even makes any sense at all.
Anyways, there's my little rant about karma. Oh, and for the record, I do believe in karma.
You don't have to agree with me "I don't care what you think, as long as you think"

Stepping it up

I have almost reached the 4 1/2 week mark of school and I have definitely realized that this year is a lot harder than last year. I really need to step it up if I am going to get my straight A's that I am hoping to get. English used to be an easy breeze for me, but now that I am in honors things have definitely gotten hard, seems like I actually have to try hard this year. AP World History has shown me the importance of studying and actually reading! If I don't read and take good notes on the chapter then my grade can seriously drop. The good thing is test make ups. Which I need to definitely work on! Chemistry has been a pain in the butt, not going to lie, it's definitely not being good to me. Math is real easy, maybe I will go into honors next year. I can't this year because my whole schedule would get all messed up, so I don't really want to risk it. French is definitely getting challenging even though Mme McMullin has been a lot chiller than she was last year. Theatre isn't very fun at the moment just because I don't like the monologues I am currently working on. I wish I had more time to actually find a legitimate monologue. Seminary is seminary, I am finally starting to warm up to my class even though some people do not know how to not be annoying as crap. Oh and lunch is pretty good, I like the people me, Jenna and Kayla hang out with everyday. I do wish that Gunnar and that little group still had my lunch because I miss those boys. This week at school is going to be pretty hectic. I've got a hard english vocabulary quiz, and a french quiz tomorrow. Another vocabulary quiz for english on Thursday and a packet it due. Homework is not fun. Not at all.
With my mother entering into her last 4 weeks of her pregnancy, I can only really describe her in one word: Bipolar. Emotions running around up the walls! One minute she is my best friend and the next I get in trouble for not having my earring on right. I guess that's the price you pay for having a pregnant mother. But wait it's not MY fault she's pregnant, so I shouldn't have to pay a price ha ha. 
I really want to get out of Arizona for a while. I want to go with a few friends and just get out for a weekend. I seriously just need a break from reality for a little while. I want to do something that I am going to remember in 50 years and smile about it. I wish I was about 1 year older so I could get my license in like two months. Everyone tells me I should be happy I am so young but right now my cons are stacking up higher than my pros. 
I want to hang out with new people, new exciting people that know how to have fun (my kind of fun). I wish there were cool people in my neighborhood who aren't all druggies, that would be nice. 
Current annoyance: Freshman & JV football players. They are so freaking cocky I cannot stand it. I want to shoot them all every single time I see them. 

Updates and such.

I have not done a blog in quite a long while, so I thought I should start up again, with some updates from school and life and such.
So this year, since I am the exact opposite of fit and/or active, I decided I am going to join clubs!  Well really only two, Anytown and Extra Mile  Interact. I really like both of the clubs I have joined because they both are focused on things that I have a strong opinion one. Anytown-Diversity and Interact-Volunteer work.
One thing I am really looking forward to about Anytown is the chance of going to Our Town! I think that it would really be a life changing experience, just from hearing what my friends have said about it. And I am also very excited about Interact just not for one specific reason.

I am also currently in a challenge with TJ Chapman to see who can get a some what noticeable 6 pack first because we are both very unfit and eat like pigs but remain skinny because our bodies are psycho.

Music has been really affecting my mood each day, original right? But seriously the song I listen to before I go to school will be stuck in my head all day and will in the long run affect my mood on the day.

In french class I got a new name... it is Sophie! haha This is how we have to write our names on our papers RICHARDSON Sophie and then our date is written 31/8/10
Pretty cool eh?

Okay so in anytown we were talking about worries and I pretty much figured out that I am worried about a lot more stuff than I had originally thought I was. I'm scared that what I'm doing won't be worth it.

I am glad that this year, with friends, I am making some new ones, reuniting with old ones and unfortunately drifting from close ones. I really like having the lunch I have, there aren't as many annoying people that make me want to shoot myself whenever I even glance at them, except my stalker kid, sometimes he just creeps me out and makes me want to go hide in a sewer.

There are a couple updates for you I guess haha.

Oh & my mother is due in 6 weeks with the vortex child!:)

Abortion

Okay Rory asked me a question four months ago that I did not have the answer to, but now I do. His question was:

What is your view on abortion?

Okay, so I do not like abortion personally but I think it is the girls choice to have the abortion or not. I don’t think it should be illegal to get one because, as horrible as it might sound, maybe the fetus thing is better off because they could be treated horribly and abused and almost get killed. So I am pro-choice. 

There was something quick that  didn't want to expand on. You don't have to agree with me, I'm not telling you to. Form your own opinion on it, that's what I did.

First Day of School

Actually went pretty well. I like all of my classes, or at least the people in them. Well all except math, I like the teacher he is a cool cat, but all the people in there are so annoying! So here are my comments on each of my hours.

A Hour/Chemistry - Gwara was nice, but its the first day so I am not quite sure what to expect. SO many people in that class. I am happy Serenity is in the class, she is like my favorite person. I think it will be a pretty good year as long as Gwara is a morning person. but of course she is probably not haha.

1st Hour/Int. Theatre - Same old same old theatre as last year. But double the annoying people, seriously I thought I was going to shoot myself. This year should definitely be... interesting. At least I will actually do some acting though!

2nd Hour/Hon. English - Oh my goodness I love Ms. Jackson, she might just have given the best first impression any teacher has ever given me. I really like my class haha lots of fun people. Only two guys in that class though, kind of strange. I heard she is not a morning person but she seemed perfectly fine for now(: Oh and I really like that saying she told us "Your perception is your own reality" (sorry if I butchered it) I just think it is really interesting when I gt to thinking about it. I am def going to love that class.

3rd Hour/French II - This was kind of strange because McMullin was like REALLY nice and laid back. She like lifted all of the tules that we had last year. Apparently pregnancy was really hard on her. Actually makes me think about taking French 3 haha. Anyways lots of people I hate last year and its looking to be a good year. I am very happy Abbey got it switched so she could have it with me.

4th Hour/Lunch - I actually kind of liked 4th hour, I thought I would miss 5th too much. But I pretty much hung out with these people over the hour - Jenna Kayla Cheyenne Chris Jenny Kaleina Amy and that one girl I forgot her name. But it looks like this lunch will be good. Oh and it was freakin' HOT!

5th Hour/Math - Love the teacher, Brandl is so legitimate not even kidding. I love his tatoos and his life is really interesting. The people in the class are pretty annoying but thats okay I guess. Oh and of course I have math with Derrick Goslin again, I have had a class with him since the 4th grade. I need a break ahah.

6th Hour/Seminary - I have the same hour I had last year and like 1/2 of the same people and I have the same teacher. So that is pretty good. Except the fact for 1/2 of the other 1/2 of the people. I CANNOT STAND THEM! Ahhhh. I want my old seminary class back! With Malia and Rory, that would be nice, thanks.

7th Hour/AP World History - I am kind of nervous about this class but I have a positive attitude about it. I really like Mr. Treat he seems like a cool guy. There are A LOT of people in that class, there wasn't even enough chairs. I am glad I have it with some of my friends though. I hope it will be a good class for me.

Oh one other weird thing that happened Julie (Jeannie's cousin who used to hate me) really talked to me, like she was really nice to me. I love how this happens when me and Jeannie aren't friends and Jeannie doesn't like Julie.

Kyra Ponkilla

Oh Kyra Ponkilla I don't even know what to say. I am so sorry that this is happening to you, and that it was just dropped on you like this. I am having a hard time even getting this through my head so I can't even imagine what could possibly going through your head right now. I am seriously holding back tears typing this because I don't know what I would do without you Kyra. I am just so happy we became friends last year, you are seriously my best friend Kyra and I love you so much. We have had so many good times and I never want them to end. I just wish your mom could have warned you so we could at least say good bye (for now). I do wish you the best in California and that maybe your mom will change her mind and bring you back home where you belong in a month. Maybe there is a reason that this is happening to you right now and though the reason may be blind I guess we both have to trust that this will be good for you and everything will turn out right. Like Sela said at least you have the beach with you<3 Kyra don't let this bump in the road get to you right now, things will get better for you and I am always just a phone call away Kyra. I love you and I am going to miss you so much. Everything will be okay, I promise.

What I said,

In my mind I hoped for this summer to be amazing, I even said it out loud. But this summer was much less than that. But one thing I did say about this summer was that it would change things, and in all honesty it did. This was a summer of loss and realization. This summer I pretty much drifted away from my best friend of four years, I lost her but I did a lot of thinking over time about it and I know that it really is for the better. On a different note, I changed a lot this summer. I found out a lot of things about myself that was crucial for me to even move on with my life. I learned a lot about other people, good things and bad things. So even though this summer was not amazing like some of my others have been, it was a summer that changed me. Changed me for the better.

Well just thought I would get that little snip out there.

Anyways,

school starts this upcoming Wednesday. I still need to finish 1984. Not that it is a bad book or anything its just that I have a short attention span on things that don't keep me on my feet. 

I am really quite excited for school to start I feel like my life will be back to normal when it starts. A new year, a fresh start. Summer is coming to a close but I still have a couple plans that need to be fulfilled, like hanging out with Macy and Madi. 

Unfortunately, only one event was crossed off the bucketlist:/ 

We still need chalk night, movie night and a concert I believe.

One last note,

my grandpa is over and I find it hard to communicate with them, that is something that I need to work on.

Day Thirty

Last day of the challenge!
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Who are you


Well to start off and say the simplest I am Sydney Richardson, 14 years old. I am probably (not to sound conceded) one of the most mature 14 year olds you will ever meet. I am a sophomore at desert ridge and the second youngest in my class. I am now and forever known as the middle child in my family. I am just pretty much your ordinary girl. I am just trying to find my way in life. I set my own opinions and listen to others. I am Sydney Richardson and thats pretty much all I will ever be, well until I get married and get a new last name.

Day Twenty-Nine

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

• I am a very slow reader
• Power and Ellsworth look very similar
• I'm a chicken when it comes to calling people
• I am starting to become a normal teenager when it comes to sleeping
• My brother can be very inconsiderate at times
• My sister has all the same teachers as me
• Monsoons have mainly been happening at night
• Secret Life has not been updated on On Demand

Sorry the month just started and I cannot think of a lot of things :(

Day Twenty-Eight

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Well the most obvious physical change is that my hair is now half the length is was a year ago. I also don't have highlights anymore so a lot less blonde then I had before. Most of my teeth have grown in now as compared to before when I had some random vampire teeth that were like only coming half way. I have gotten taller to the point that I am officially a average sized 14-year old. When it comes to non-physical changes I am a lot more confident than I was a year ago. I am now more independent. Before I did things wondering what certain people would think about it or I would always think everything I did was bad compared to what everybody else was doing. I still haven't completely found myself yet but I know now what I don't want to be like. I have changed a lot in a year, thats all I can say I guess.

Day Twenty-Seven

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge


Why? Because I noticed I had nothing t blog about all summer so I guess this would help me out a little bit. And it sounded fun to me and not too complicated. 

School.

Wednesday August 11th. One week and two days. School starts. 

I can officially be called a sophomore, even though I still look like a freshman.

It seems so unreal that school is starting so soon. I can't decide if the summer went by fast or slow.

Anyways, I am so excited for school to start. I cannot wait to see the people that I haven't seen in a long while. I got the first glimpse of it today when I saw Kyra Ponkilla who I haven't seen since the last day of school and I have missed her so much.

Anyways, school is like my life, kind of. It gives me things to do. School has introduced me to just about everything that is important to me. Like people or activities. 

And to think that I am a quarter done with high school? That is crazy. If this year went by as fast as it did last year I will be a junior before I can even blink! 

The future is amongst us all! We can either be afraid of it or embrace it. I didn't realize how fast life goes until recently and I just want to live my last 3 years of high school! I'm not going to waste it I am going to make something of it. I want to be able to have good memories from my high school experience to tell my kids. Speaking of kids if I followed in my moms footsteps I could be getting married in 5 years and having kids in 6. Crazy? YES. 

Time to embrace life and understand that I can't stop the future was coming.

And news flash; neither can you.

Day Twenty-Six

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends


Well they must be some pretty special people if they are my friends haha. I hang out with a wide variety of people and I think of each one differently. I love all of them for different reasons. One thing that all my friends have in common though is that they all have hearts. My friends are pretty amazing even if other people won't agree with me no matter what other people try to say. I love all my friends and I think I know they are all very special.

Day Twenty-Five

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag


In my bag you will find my sparkling sugared pear victoria secret spray, my IPod touch, my Island Waters lotion, old receipts, some money, and my cellular phone.

Day Twenty-Four

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents


Dear Parents of mine,
I am very happy that you guys are my parents and that you are not bad parents or abusive parents. Thank you for the freedom that I have been given lately but a long with freedom (mom) I would like a little trust. You need to know that I am not going to do anything wrong. I know you don't necessarily like my choice of friends but I don't always like hanging out with the goody goods who don't do anything fun. Maybe my friends will make choices that I wouldn't make and you need to know that just because they are doing things that doesn't mean I am too. But thank you for giving me the little lee-way you have given me. Now Dad I would appreciate not being bossed around so much, you are the coolest dad whenever my friends are around. why can't you be the coolest dad when they aren't. But you do help me when I am having trouble with mom so thank you. I wish you still did do Saturday dates with me Rory and McKenzie. I understand money is tight but we don't have to do things that cost money! We rarely hang out with you anymore. The only time we have fun with you is when you come swimming with us like three times this summer. I need you two to know that I love you and trust you and that you guys are really good parents. 
Love,
Sydney

Day Twenty-Three

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot


Well I am always craving for some chicken nuggets. But lately a craving I have had is for a strawberry daiquiri sobe and some razzles. I haven't had the combination in quite a long while.

Day Twenty-Two

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

What makes me different from everyone else? I guess this is kind of hard to do because I am a lot alike everyone else as well and sometimes I don't necessarily look at all of the differences as much as I look at the similarities. But I am different from everyone else because I can accept the fact that I am pretty similar to everybody else. I am really good at finding the positives and mostly the negatives in just about everything. I like to stay true to my own opinions and not let just anyone change them just because people might like them more. Oh and one more thing that might make me different from other people is that I love school, unlike a lot of people I know. 

Day Twenty-One

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day Twenty

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future


Well for being as young as I am, I haven't found that guy I would marry. So I don't have someONE I have right now I see myself marrying. I have met guys that all have a little something that I would want in a potential husband. Like being taller than me by at least 3 inches, being funny, someone with a different heritage than me, or someone who will be able to handle my complaints and someone that will let me make fun of them. So I don't have someone I see myself marrying right now but I do have my fantasy guy. But I'll let you know when I find him.

Day Nineteen

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
El-Train/Train/Trainer/Rainer/Rain - these are my dads various nicknames that all rooted from El-Train which he got from a movie about trains, this train was called the El Train.
Syd Kid - I have this one because the only thing people could ever think of for my full name was sydney kidney and i didn't like it so i shortened it to syd kid.
Little Syd - Annie wanted to make a nickname for me because she loved how little I was 
Little One - She made this one for me like in 7th grade because she was stretch and I was little
Stuff - Shayly McDonnell couldn't think of a nickname for me so she asked me what I liked to do and I said stuff and it has kind of just sticked
Sydknee - it was mine and jeannies inside joke because both our name end with the "knee" sounds
Small Fry - Chelsea gave this one to me because we were talking about french fries one day and shes like "hey your small you should be small fry"
Australia - Sydney, Australia
Australian - Me and Kayla are living in Australia and she is a Koala Bear so I am automatically the australian
Syd - Because some people don't like to say ney 
Dora - In seventh grade me Jennifer and Jeannie were all super heros and I was Dora because she is a super hero haah
Paprika - Me Madi Mckenzie and Aly were all spices one day and I chose Paprika 
Canadian - because I am Canadian


I am sure there are more they are just less common for me. Notice how like 90% of the names involve some sort of variation of being small

Anthem

I finished it like last week, I stopped reading 1984 midway through so I could read Anthem. I thought it was a really interesting book. Fascinating really. It made me imagine how life would be for me if I lived in a society like that. Where ego is the worst thing possible. Where you never used personal pronouns like I or he or she because it wasn't even in their societies vocabulary. Instead of using “I” you would use the word “we”. Example: We like chicken. It was kind of confusing for me to read at first to comprehend whether the guy was talking about himself only or him and somebody else. But after like twenty pages it was pretty easy. I am not going to explain everything about the book because you should go read it on your own and make your own opinions about it. So, if you haven’t read it you should and plus you have to read it for honors english your sophomore year anyways. Now I just have to finish 1984, if I can even find it.

Day Eighteen

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have


Well I have some plans to go to school in less than a month and I am planning on joining some clubs because last year I pretty much did nothing at the school. But like long term I plan on graduating high school and then going to an out of state college and getting a degree in interior design or something else I haven't decided yet. I would really love to end up back in Canada somehow. I want to get married and have like two kids but apparently I am going to have at least four. I really want to try and save some money to go on an out of the country trip with one of my friends. I have a lot more of course but you know me whenever I start typing stuff down I forget everything I wanted to actually type. So there are a couple for the people who are reading this.

Square Dancing

New favorite thing to do, ever! haha no, totally kidding but it is quite enjoyable!
My ward youth had to do it for stake pioneer day. the boys were lame and all of the bailed except Zach so it was 13 girls and one guy. So I got paired up with a girl and of course who was the boy? I was. I tried being the girl but I lead to much. Maybe I should have been a boy, when it comes to dancing I pretty much am one. Even at like actual dances I end up leading the guys, bad habit I guess.
I think I am going to try and put up the videos my dad taped. But I cannot apparently because the USB is freaking out on me.

Day Seventeen

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why


I would want to switch lives with Malia Malo. I would want to switch with her because her life always seems to be so fascinating and I look at all of her pictures and stuff she does with people and it just looks really fun! haha yeah sucky explanation but whatever.

I really need,

to start doing things this summer, i think the reason my curse was lifted is because I am not doing anything.  I need to start following through with what I say I am going to do. So let's just start making plans for whenever. School is amongst us, summer is fading to a thin line.

Jenny Jensen- I really miss talking to you about random things and everything.

I feel lately that I don't really have anything important to say to anyone, I feel like the people that I used to talk to about everything have changed too much for them to even fathom what I am trying to get them to comprehend! I really want to meet more people that can understand me, I have people like this now, don't get me wrong, I just want new people, like Jenny this year was my new person during the last few months of the school year.

Well my throat really hurts so I took some Garlic pills so I can still go to Jenna Armenta's house today. Then square dancing tonight. Tomorrow is the pioneer activity and then maybe seeing despicable me with Jenna and hanging out with Kyra who I haven't seen since the last day of school. tear drop.

Oh and the other night (Tuesday Night) people came over to play some Cops & Robbers we played for about 45 minutes and then we all realized it was too hot and boring so we all came back to my place and played the improv story game (Haley: Oh boy what a hunk) and taboo! We also had a good conversation going about school and people while Patrick was putting make up on Justin Bieber. It was a really fun night and if you ended up not coming, you really must come next time(:

Day Sixteen

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day Fifteen

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- The meaning behind your tumblr name and/or any other blogging site

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Who are you


Day Fifteen,
1: Situations - Escape The Fate
2: Best Days Of Your Life - Kellie Pickler
3: Beat It - Michael Jackson
4: Pursuit of Happiness - KiD CUDi
5: Rainbow in the Dark - Dio
6: The Weight - The Band
7: Another Like Me - Prince
8: Sister Morphine - The Rolling Stones
9: Zebra - Beach House
10: Set it Off - Girl Talk

Day Fourteen

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- The meaning behind your tumblr name and/or any other blogging site

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Who are you

Day Thirteen

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- The meaning behind your tumblr name and/or any other blogging site

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Who are you


Dear she who must not be names:
You have been telling me and telling me how you want things to be better between us and how you miss me but you have really only tried once. I tried when all of this crap started happening but you didn't take it so I gave up on you. And now you get mad at me because I can't hang out with you because I am busy every single time you ask me. Its not like you really hurt me its that it hurts to know how different we are now of a sudden, and that we can't even talk without feeling like we are talking to a total and complete stranger. Your friends and cousins have influenced you to do different things and act a different way, and that isn't bad but it is almost like you aren't even the same person I was best friends with. Yes I changed, I can accept that! Why can't you accept that you have changed too? I don't know if things will ever get to be the same with us again. We were really different before but now its like we don't have a common ground, and it is something that I am not used to and it is something you cannot notice.
-Sydney

Day Twelve

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- The meaning behind your tumblr name and/or any other blogging site

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Who are you


Day Twelve
Well I got this challenge off of tumblr so thats why its not really about blogger so I will say both. I got tumblr because I was bored one day in 8th grade and I needed a place to write down what I wanted to write down. I pretty much found tumblr out on my own. I got a blogger about a year after I made my tumblr and this was the place that I really wanted to vent about my opinions on everything. And all my moms friends had blogger and I just made one from them.

day eleven

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- The meaning behind your tumblr name and/or any other blogging site

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Who are you

Day Ten

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- The meaning behind your tumblr name and/or any other blogging site

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Who are you


Day Ten:
Happy: Hey Soul Sister by Train
Sad: She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5
Bored: Summer Drive Song by Backseat Goodbye
Hyped: Daylight by Matt &Kim
Mad: I Want To Break Free by Queen