I have always been a better listener than a talker. So good that I am really good at eavesdropping, good thing? Probably not, but I have the skill nonetheless. But anyways, I am not really good about talking about what's going on in my life, especially when there is something dramatic going on in my life. Like recently, the past few months I have been going through something I guess you could say its similar to heartbreak, and I was thinking, who even knows about my situation? There was the person who is in the situation with me, who doesn't even know my side let me add, and then there's my sister, who also doesn't even know everything. I realized I am not good at talking about my feelings, not even to my best friends. They didn't know and they still don't know what happened. I am really closed within myself, I am not good at opening up to people per say. But I am really good at listening. I love to hear what is going on in other peoples lives, I love being the one to help them. I love knowing that someone can come to me when they have a problem. But I can't do the same to them. I am so good at trying to help other people with their problems but I literally suck at trying to help myself with my own. I haven't had someone I have told absolutely everything to in quite awhile, and I'm hoping to meet someone soon, someone new that would be that person to help me get over this thing I have. Jenny Jensen was my go-to girl for awhile when I was going through some hard things with my old best friend, she was my new person, I had barely even known her when she started helping me. I miss talking to you Jenny I truly do, we have both gone away from what we had binding us together, and I miss it. Anyways, another thing I noticed, if I am talking to someone about my problems, its friend drama, never relationship stuff. I never tell anyone who I like, fearing if I tell them it will ruin everything that I might have with the guy I like. (Oh and for the record, I do not like anyone right now). Anyways usually with my friends if you like them, you end up going out with them. Thats not how it always goes for me, so I usually choose not to tell them. This has its ups and downs and it sucks.
Next thing I would like to blog a little about is how much I love having guy friends. The ones I can text all day not worrying about liking them or eventually falling for them. Guys are the only people I like to text nowadays anyways. They are the ones who always put a smile on my face when I am around them. I don't even have to have a crush on them for it to happen. Don't get me wrong I love my girls, and they make my day everyday and I love them bundles, but its just something about having guy friends that makes my life a little more exciting.
One last thing, I love little kids and youtube videos about them.
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