I love my baby sister

She is probably the cutest being of my life. She is two months old as of December 21st.

O Canada

For winter break I am in Canada, probably my favorite place on earth. First week, I am in Lethbridge with my grandparents and cousins, second week I am in Calgary with my friends.
I am already really enjoying this winter break, one for probably a strange reason. My phone is off. For verizon charges roaming fees in Canada. Anyways, having my phone off takes away most of my worries of the drama in America, not having to worry about it. So I can focus my time with the family and friends I haven't seen in ages, contrary to focusing all my time to my phone who is connected to the friends I see everyday. Another reason i am really enjoying myself is my little cousins Sam and Lizzie. Sam is 7 and Lizzie is 9, they are the spunkiest kids I have ever met in my entire life, they make me laugh until I want to die it hurts so much. I love our random fist pump sessions I have with them, and how opinionated they are, and how they are so loud and silly, for a lack of a better word, it makes me really miss living 2 hours from them. Another thing I love about my cousins, all four of them, is how active they are. They are so scheduled and have all kinds of sports and hobbies they do everyday at the University, it truly cracks me up. I would hate to live with such a strict schedule though, it just makes me smile seeing how happy they are with it.
So quick little realization I got from Hailey Bradfords blog (http://haileybradford.blogspot.com/2010/12/dont-miss-this-or-it-or-me-for-that.html) one of the realizations she had was that she has her whole life to find someone. Okay so it got me thinking about high school, and the desperate people in it. A lot of people I know are so very desperate to have a boyfriend and/or girlfriend, they think if hey can't get one in high school they will be single for the rest of their lives. I thought that was pretty pathetic. High school is a mere four years of your life, in some aspects it does make or break your life, in this aspect it does not. You do not need a partner to be happy, and honestly if you are strong and single you will probably be more happy. Note: It is not wrong to have a boyfriend/girlfriend in high school, its being desperate to have one that is wrong to me at least. Anyways, I have never been the "girlfriend" type, more of the best friend. And I like it that way. I would much rather be the best friend to a whole bunch of different guys than be secluded to one person, excluding me from a whole bunch of other amazing guys. I am a much better best friend anyways, when it comes to being a girlfriend things just get awkward. HA. So yeah, this is not a jab at people who are currently in relationships, not at all, just a jab at the ones who waste all their time wanting to be in one and not caring about anything else in the world.

Here's A Blog

I have always been a better listener than a talker. So good that I am really good at eavesdropping, good thing? Probably not, but I have the skill nonetheless. But anyways, I am not really good about talking about what's going on in my life, especially when there is something dramatic going on in my life. Like recently, the past few months I have been going through something I guess you could say its similar to heartbreak, and I was thinking, who even knows about my situation? There was the person who is in the situation with me, who doesn't even know my side let me add, and then there's my sister, who also doesn't even know everything. I realized I am not good at talking about my feelings, not even to my best friends. They didn't know and they still don't know what happened. I am really closed within myself, I am not good at opening up to people per say. But I am really good at listening. I love to hear what is going on in other peoples lives, I love being the one to help them. I love knowing that someone can come to me when they have a problem. But I can't do the same to them. I am so good at trying to help other people with their problems but I literally suck at trying to help myself with my own. I haven't had someone I have told absolutely everything to in quite awhile, and I'm hoping to meet someone soon, someone new that would be that person to help me get over this thing I have. Jenny Jensen was my go-to girl for awhile when I was going through some hard things with my old best friend, she was my new person, I had barely even known her when she started helping me. I miss talking to you Jenny I truly do, we have both gone away from what we had binding us together, and I miss it. Anyways, another thing I noticed, if I am talking to someone about my problems, its friend drama, never relationship stuff. I never tell anyone who I like, fearing if I tell them it will ruin everything that I might have with the guy I like. (Oh and for the record, I do not like anyone right now). Anyways usually with my friends if you like them, you end up going out with them. Thats not how it always goes for me, so I usually choose not to tell them. This has its ups and downs and it sucks.
Next thing I would like to blog a little about is how much I love having guy friends. The ones I can text all day not worrying about liking them or eventually falling for them. Guys are the only people I like to text nowadays anyways. They are the ones who always put a smile on my face when I am around them. I don't even have to have a crush on them for it to happen. Don't get me wrong I love my girls, and they make my day everyday and I love them bundles, but its just something about having guy friends that makes my life a little more exciting.
One last thing, I love little kids and youtube videos about them.

Let's just get this clear.

Okay so about 99% of the population (exaggeration, duh) knows that I DO NOT LIKE (like) PEOPLE THAT OFTEN. Yeah and they wonder why. Well here is how it goes... I don't like opening up to guys, it takes A LOT. And normally when I open up to the them it generally means I like them. But every single time I open up, this great spark lasts for a couple weeks and then suddenly its dead and I end up being second best and the guy RANDOMLY has this other girl in his life that he chooses in the end. This has happened more than once. And you wonder why I do not like to like people that often...