start of

the last week of school.
I technically only have 3 days of school (adding the two 1/2 days together)
I have 2 finals tomorrow. 2 final on tuesday. none on wednesday and 1 on thursday. so its a pretty even mix.
not quite sure how i am feeling about the whole thing.
I am totally ready for summer but i don't think i want to let go of a year that has turned my life upside down.
I know this summer is going to add to this whole rotation in my life. I can't wait, but a little too anxious.
This year started out pretty shaky i honestly used to miss the jr. high at the beginning of the year. I have drifted away from TRPWSITMOTCAD (The random people who sit in the middle of the courtyard all day) they were like my closest friends and they all had 4th hr lunch while me and jeannie had 5th hour. But I also met a lot of new people this year like Katti and Kyra and Jenny. I have also gotten a lot closer to people this year like Gunnar, Kayla and Jenna. And others have drifted away. sad but thats life i guess.
I cant wait until summer, I want to hang out with a lot of new people and meet new people. I want something new and exciting to happen. i NEED this summer to rememberable.

Well my aunt and grandparents are over from Canada for Rory's graduation. Which means I got canadian chocolate bars and ketchup chips<333 they are my favorite things in the world.
I might bring some chips tomorrow. I don't know.

Postscript : I bought Moulin Rouge on DVD so someone should come watch it with me sometime.
Postscript 2 : Jenny+Jenna; @ blockbuster all kids movies are 99 cents so we should have out movie night soon.
Postscript 3: We need to schedule the new date for chalk night.

disappointment

yes that has been happening a lot lately.
disappointment in people - the things they have done lately
disappointment in events - things that didn't work out as well as they should have (talent show)
disappointment in school - finals and not doing more
that is one thing i sure don't like to be very often.
it usually takes a lot for me to get disappointed but for some reason lately it has become a lot easier to become disappointed.
on a positive note i guess you could say this disappointment will make me stronger. that i will learn from this. disappointment cannot destroy me, thats for sure. disappointment could only lead me to new adventures with different things and/or people.
also from disappointment you gain a sense of hope. hope that things will turn out well. hope that it will never happen again. hope to be able to overcome any more disappointments along the way.

off of that note.
i realized something today i thought i already realized.
we aren't the same. we don't act the same. we most likely couldn't get back to the place that we were at. we had fun, and i am always here for you. but things just aren't the same. and summer will most likely be the end of it. i hope that things will get better in the far future but the time a part we are having will strengthen us. it will make us realize some of each others faults. for now, we are too different, too different to bring us to a common ground.

and off of that note.
officially only 4 more days of my freshman year left.
this year went by so very quickly. to think i only have three more years to go.
it may sound long for some of you, but to me that seems like in a blink of an eye i will be graduating.
rory graduating helped me realized this. it wasn't so long ago that he was a freshman and his high school career went really fast for me at least.
i cannot wait until summer. this will be the start of a great change in my life.

and off of that note as well.
Katti Smith - thanks for being there, for everything during lunch. you are one of the very few people i can trust with my life and i hope you know that
Sydney Baugh - i'm not quite sure what i am going to do without you. a piece of my life is leaving with you to gilbert. i can't believe you are moving and i don't want you to but i will live and so will you and we will still see each other a lot. you and your family have been my sanity and i am more that grateful for all of you.
Jenny Jensen - even though i haven't even talked to you for that long i know i can talk to you and you will be there to listen. and that is strange because it normally takes a lot for someone to get me to talk to them about my life. (i guess your special) my ears are open for you always. i can't wait until summer. concerts.movienights.chalknight.summer'10!

and now i bid thee adieu

new post

no point except i want to post this picture of me and katti(:

dissection

for the past two days in biology we have been dissecting frogs. at first it was a pretty bad idea to pair myself up with bella (we are both squirmy) but yesterday when we started observing it and stuff it wasn't as bad. today was the day we had to cut the frog and surprisingly bella wanted to do it. funny thing is, is that bella wanted to cut elliot (the name of our frog) but refused to touch any of the parts, and i didn't want to cut him but i was able to touch all the parts. mr sherrill said he was proud because i was one of the few girls who would actually touch with my fingers the organs and what not. anyways ill get up two pictures.    

                                               
The frog cut open!
Me and Bella (not the best picture haha)

Beauty

Jenny's new movement got me thinking about beauty and the lengths people go to obtain it.
Think about everything girls do to make themselves... suitable for a guy or confident about how they look.
Some pretty girls like to cake their face on with make up
Others only wear a little mascara cover-up and eyeliner.
Some girls can't go to school without teasing your hair or adding volume.
Others can go to school with their natural hair and on adding a little style on another.
Some girls dress to impress (boobs, butts, legs)
Others wear what they are comfortable with wearing.
Sometimes the way people (guys or girls) dress or make themselves appear is much different than their personality.

“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.”

True beauty is something that not a lot of people see. Sure what you wear or how you look makes you "beautiful" but only to an extent. Maybe it's good for the two weeks that your dating "your soul mate" but in the long run its true beauty that counts. True beauty goes far beyond looks it is much deeper inside of you. Personality. Personality is beauty. A good man will not choose his wife by the physical beauty (but yes physical beauty does play a role) a good man chooses his bride by the way she acts around him, how she is compared to when she is with her friends and her boyfriend. A woman should be comfortable around the people they want to spend the rest of their life with. They should be able to wear no makeup and have their someone think they are even more beautiful.
True beauty is hard to find, but in the end its worth your time.

I know I am not the physically prettiest girl in the world but I make up for that with my personality, and I think that is worth a lot more.

I came up with a few things girls do that I don't particularly find "good looking"
*Teasing your hair until it looks like a tumor
*Wearing so much foundation it looks like you are a cake
*Wearing so much make up, your neck and face are two different colors
*Showing your bra (only one person can do that) i find it to be very trashy
*Showing your boobs; only cocky self-indulgent guys are looking at you
*Wearing short shorts to an extent where I can see you butt hanging out
*Wearing a lot of DARK make-up to an extent that I cannot see the color of your eyes
*Wearing clothes that look really uncomfortable; i don't know why it just bugs me.
Those are just a few things. I would make a list of things that makes a girl pretty (physically) but there are so many. I wouldn't have the time.

Well time to eat some pancakes for dinner!
Chalk night is officially postponed, we will figure out dates later. We want lots of people to come.

Spectacular, Spectacular!

Well I haven't had too much to blog about lately but now that its the end of another week in May I figured I would blog a little.
So any ways, first things first I had my french oral exam on Friday. I was so so nervous I kid you not. But luckily I did well I got a 99/100. That is so much better than what I thought. I am relieved that I got it over with instead of doing it tomorrow. And plus since I did it on Friday I don't have to do a project at the end of the year, which is really good. Hopefully I can maintain my A!

Friday night, I went to my Church's girls camp "over nighter" at Belynda's house. We made some really cool camp shirts and pants. We played tether ball, mafia, we swam, made smores, practiced our skit. And then at about 2 in the morning me, Sydni Frost, Kyra Baugh, Kinley Garr and my sister played Skip-bo. It was fun because I won one of the two games:P Anyways after we played that we went to sleep outside on the grass. Worst mistake of my life. I got bit by so many bugs. Well technically yesterday I only had 4 red spots on my face but when I woke up this morning, there was way more than 4. And my sister has like a huge cluster of them on one of her cheeks so it looks like she has one big one. That picture doesn't even show how bad it is. Luckily my bangs cover most of it.

Saturday I went to visit my Uncle and Grandparents in Tucson. Well my dad was sick so he didn't come. And apparently they didn't care to see me or anyone else except my dad, so they were all in a bad mood the whole time. It was so rude though because they asked us to come visit them THE DAY BEFORE and my dad is a pretty busy guy and they expect him to drop everything and come see them. And then when he is SICK they all are in a bad mood. To make matters worse when we first arrived there my step-grandpa (who is such a creeper and he bugs me) is like "Look you guys Sydney is getting boobs" I was appalled so I didn't even talk to him the entire time. Adding to that, I was supposed to go to Jenna's party at the right time but I was nice enough to go a couple hours late to come visit my family and when my mom told them we had to leave they are all like "Sydney doesn't love us she doesn't even want to spend time with us, she would rather go to a party" AT LEAST I CAME IN THE FIRST PLACE!

Saturday was way better. I went to Jenna's party until midnight and we played wii and watched Horton Hears a Who. Haha Katie is so hilarious. Oh yeah we also watched silent library on MTV and I resent that show its so mean and horrible and the host is so ANNOYING!

Yeah so that was my weekend.

One other thing I would like to add to this blog is that I love going through yearbooks. They bring back so many memories it almost makes me want to cry. I was looking through my sisters 6th grade yearbook and it reminded me of how much I loved 6th grade! I can't wait until I get old and I can look at all my yearbooks from the past, it will be so much fun. I do wish that my elementary school in Canada had yearbooks because there are so many memories that have probably lost so many memories and it would be so good to reminisce (if that is how you even spell that)

++Can't wait until friday, Chalk Night!
It won't be that good but it will be fun(:

It's Gone!

I did it! I got my hair cut! I am so happy. I feel soooo relieved, haha I love it! My sister says I look like Selena Gomez? I think otherwise. I am really happy because my dad and mom really like it (they thought it would look bad, so they wouldn't let me for like a month). Yeah so I am going get some pictures up on here. I don't really have much to say rather than that.
So here are some pictures:

mckenzie

 got her bangs cut as well(:


P.S Happy birthday McKenzie Richardson and Erika Shaw!!
Your so old(;