So I have came to the conclusion that I have made it pretty far in my 14 1/2 years of my life. I am definitely not what I expected myself to be when I was five. I used to think I would be a child star like the Olsen twins or something. I definitely wouldn't think I would be living in the freakin' hot Arizona when I was 5. I thought I would forever be in Calgary, Canada, and I sometimes wish I still lived there but I have grown up so much from living in Arizona and I can't even think of how my life would have turned out if I ended up staying there. Even though I sometimes don't want to live here in AZ I am happy I did because I wouldn't have made the great friends that I have made or made decisions that I have made here. I feel like I have matured so much since last year even. High School has been such a good thing for me and I just finished my first year in it. I couldn't imagine a better life for me right now. I am very proud of how far I have come. I feel like I can be dependent on people but I can be independent when necessary. I used to be so dependent I could hardly function without the presence of at least one of my friends. Nowadays, I like to be alone but I love to go out as well. Sort of like the best of both worlds (sorry to go all Hannah Montana there). I have come to a point in my life where I am simply confident. I have confidence in who I am and what I believe in. I can do things on my own and make my own decisions without receiving the approval from the popular kids like I did in grade four. Or now how I can dress however I want without worrying about what people have to say about it like I did in grade seven. I remember in elementary I would do anything to be in the "popular crowd" I thought that I was just a waste of air if I wasn't popular. Now I don't even want to be popular I could care less about it. I like being with the friends I have now even if we aren't the coolest kids around. I have changed so much in the past few years. I feel like I have finally formed into the butterfly that I have been waiting to become for the longest time. I know I am not done changing and maybe I never will be but during my journey I am going to find the positive in everything I do and what I become. I am happy that I have broken out of my little shell and gotten to know new people from different religions, cultures, and even social groups. I used to only like to hang out with one kind of crowd, but now I like to have a huge variety of friends that I know I can always turn to. I know it is strange that I am writing a blog about how I am proud of my life when I am so young but I could care less personally.
Now I just want to say thanks to everybody that has come into my life and helped me realize things.
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These are just some of the main people who have changed my life or helped me with my life in the past 10 years. Lots of you guys we aren't really as close anymore but you guys have really impacted me.
Note: There are a lot of people I am forgetting please do not get offended. not all my friends are even on this list.
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