6 in the morning

I am an early bird and I always wake up no later than like 7, I love waking up early, before anyone else is awake, come downstairs get on the laptop, listen to music and just think. It is a prefect time just to think about everything going on in my life, the morning is when I clear my thoughts and figure everything else. I don't have to worry about anyone distracting me because everyone is all asleep.

"When I was a boy my grandfather died, and he was a sculptor. He was also a very kind man who had a lot of love to give the world, and he helped clean up the slum in our town; and he made toys for us and he did a million things in his lifetime; he was always busy with his hands. And when he died, I suddenly realized I wasn't crying for him at all, but for all the things he did. I cried because he would never do them again, he would never carve another piece of wood or help us raise doves and pigeons in the backyard or play the violin the way he did, or tell us jokes the way he did...He was individual. He was an important man...He did things to the world. The world was bankrupted of ten million fine actions the night he passed on... Granger stood looking back at Montag. Everyone must leave something behind when he dies, my grandfather said. A child or a book or a painting or a house or a wall built or a pair of shoes made. Or a garden planted. Something your hand touched someway so your soul has somewhere to go when you die, and when people look at that tree or flower, you're there. It doesn't matter what you do, he said, so long as you change something from the way it was before you touched it into something that's like you after you take your hands away. The difference between the man who just cuts lawns and a real gardener is in the touching... The lawn cutter might as well not have been there at all; the gardener will be there a lifetime."

In english class we are reading Fahrenheit 451 and this excerpt was my favorite part of the whole book. It was very inspiring to me. It made me think about my life and what I am doing in the world that people will remember, if I am doing something in this world that will leave a mark, a good mark. You have to make something of your life, or it will be pointless. This excerpt really touched my heart in a strange way. I have experience death of a family member but I was never really close to them, so it wasn't that much of a big deal. It touched my heart because I started thinking about my brother E.J. and how my world would crumble to pieces if something happened to him in Brazil. I thought of all the things I would miss doing with him, all the things I can't do with him now because he is in Brazil. I know with all my heart that my brother has made a mark in this world, on me. Everyone always tells me that I remind them so much of E.J and I am so grateful that I could be that person that would make people think of E.J, now that he is in Brazil or if anything ever happened to him.
Ms. Jackson was talking about things in the world that we could leave to make our life worth living. Most people would say like really big things like being Einstein, or winning an Oscar. Ms Jackson said that yes those would have us be remembered but it is the smaller things that count. She told us this story that I cannot remember all that well but it was about this guy who was just awarded with being Valedictorian of his graduating class, in his speech he said he was clearing out his locker so his mom wouldn't have to go through all his stuff when he committed that suicide, but then a guy he had never really been in contact with him ever told him congratulations for being Valedictorian and just said hi and told him how proud he should be. That one guy that just happened to walk by in the hallway saved the Valedictorians life. It is the smallest things that will get us remembered. Sure, everyone knows that but in the back of all our minds we are like "seriously that won't happen to me, my acts won't really count" its bull crap that we even think about that stuff. Just be the good friend to someone. If someone is sore and crying, help them. Tell someone you might not even know congratulations for having a great honor. This  stuff will get you remembered, even more than being super smart or winning a huge award.

Do something in the world, don't let your life waste away.