Saturday, October 30, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
6 in the morning
I am an early bird and I always wake up no later than like 7, I love waking up early, before anyone else is awake, come downstairs get on the laptop, listen to music and just think. It is a prefect time just to think about everything going on in my life, the morning is when I clear my thoughts and figure everything else. I don't have to worry about anyone distracting me because everyone is all asleep.
"When I was a boy my grandfather died, and he was a sculptor. He was also a very kind man who had a lot of love to give the world, and he helped clean up the slum in our town; and he made toys for us and he did a million things in his lifetime; he was always busy with his hands. And when he died, I suddenly realized I wasn't crying for him at all, but for all the things he did. I cried because he would never do them again, he would never carve another piece of wood or help us raise doves and pigeons in the backyard or play the violin the way he did, or tell us jokes the way he did...He was individual. He was an important man...He did things to the world. The world was bankrupted of ten million fine actions the night he passed on... Granger stood looking back at Montag. Everyone must leave something behind when he dies, my grandfather said. A child or a book or a painting or a house or a wall built or a pair of shoes made. Or a garden planted. Something your hand touched someway so your soul has somewhere to go when you die, and when people look at that tree or flower, you're there. It doesn't matter what you do, he said, so long as you change something from the way it was before you touched it into something that's like you after you take your hands away. The difference between the man who just cuts lawns and a real gardener is in the touching... The lawn cutter might as well not have been there at all; the gardener will be there a lifetime."
In english class we are reading Fahrenheit 451 and this excerpt was my favorite part of the whole book. It was very inspiring to me. It made me think about my life and what I am doing in the world that people will remember, if I am doing something in this world that will leave a mark, a good mark. You have to make something of your life, or it will be pointless. This excerpt really touched my heart in a strange way. I have experience death of a family member but I was never really close to them, so it wasn't that much of a big deal. It touched my heart because I started thinking about my brother E.J. and how my world would crumble to pieces if something happened to him in Brazil. I thought of all the things I would miss doing with him, all the things I can't do with him now because he is in Brazil. I know with all my heart that my brother has made a mark in this world, on me. Everyone always tells me that I remind them so much of E.J and I am so grateful that I could be that person that would make people think of E.J, now that he is in Brazil or if anything ever happened to him.
Ms. Jackson was talking about things in the world that we could leave to make our life worth living. Most people would say like really big things like being Einstein, or winning an Oscar. Ms Jackson said that yes those would have us be remembered but it is the smaller things that count. She told us this story that I cannot remember all that well but it was about this guy who was just awarded with being Valedictorian of his graduating class, in his speech he said he was clearing out his locker so his mom wouldn't have to go through all his stuff when he committed that suicide, but then a guy he had never really been in contact with him ever told him congratulations for being Valedictorian and just said hi and told him how proud he should be. That one guy that just happened to walk by in the hallway saved the Valedictorians life. It is the smallest things that will get us remembered. Sure, everyone knows that but in the back of all our minds we are like "seriously that won't happen to me, my acts won't really count" its bull crap that we even think about that stuff. Just be the good friend to someone. If someone is sore and crying, help them. Tell someone you might not even know congratulations for having a great honor. This stuff will get you remembered, even more than being super smart or winning a huge award.
Do something in the world, don't let your life waste away.
"When I was a boy my grandfather died, and he was a sculptor. He was also a very kind man who had a lot of love to give the world, and he helped clean up the slum in our town; and he made toys for us and he did a million things in his lifetime; he was always busy with his hands. And when he died, I suddenly realized I wasn't crying for him at all, but for all the things he did. I cried because he would never do them again, he would never carve another piece of wood or help us raise doves and pigeons in the backyard or play the violin the way he did, or tell us jokes the way he did...He was individual. He was an important man...He did things to the world. The world was bankrupted of ten million fine actions the night he passed on... Granger stood looking back at Montag. Everyone must leave something behind when he dies, my grandfather said. A child or a book or a painting or a house or a wall built or a pair of shoes made. Or a garden planted. Something your hand touched someway so your soul has somewhere to go when you die, and when people look at that tree or flower, you're there. It doesn't matter what you do, he said, so long as you change something from the way it was before you touched it into something that's like you after you take your hands away. The difference between the man who just cuts lawns and a real gardener is in the touching... The lawn cutter might as well not have been there at all; the gardener will be there a lifetime."
In english class we are reading Fahrenheit 451 and this excerpt was my favorite part of the whole book. It was very inspiring to me. It made me think about my life and what I am doing in the world that people will remember, if I am doing something in this world that will leave a mark, a good mark. You have to make something of your life, or it will be pointless. This excerpt really touched my heart in a strange way. I have experience death of a family member but I was never really close to them, so it wasn't that much of a big deal. It touched my heart because I started thinking about my brother E.J. and how my world would crumble to pieces if something happened to him in Brazil. I thought of all the things I would miss doing with him, all the things I can't do with him now because he is in Brazil. I know with all my heart that my brother has made a mark in this world, on me. Everyone always tells me that I remind them so much of E.J and I am so grateful that I could be that person that would make people think of E.J, now that he is in Brazil or if anything ever happened to him.
Ms. Jackson was talking about things in the world that we could leave to make our life worth living. Most people would say like really big things like being Einstein, or winning an Oscar. Ms Jackson said that yes those would have us be remembered but it is the smaller things that count. She told us this story that I cannot remember all that well but it was about this guy who was just awarded with being Valedictorian of his graduating class, in his speech he said he was clearing out his locker so his mom wouldn't have to go through all his stuff when he committed that suicide, but then a guy he had never really been in contact with him ever told him congratulations for being Valedictorian and just said hi and told him how proud he should be. That one guy that just happened to walk by in the hallway saved the Valedictorians life. It is the smallest things that will get us remembered. Sure, everyone knows that but in the back of all our minds we are like "seriously that won't happen to me, my acts won't really count" its bull crap that we even think about that stuff. Just be the good friend to someone. If someone is sore and crying, help them. Tell someone you might not even know congratulations for having a great honor. This stuff will get you remembered, even more than being super smart or winning a huge award.
Do something in the world, don't let your life waste away.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Karma
In any-town we had a discussion about, karma.
Karma is as most of you know "what goes around come around"
Karma is like a person, in my mind at least. Karma has a good side and a bad side. There is good karma and bad karma. In other words, if you do something good, then good will come back to you. Or for the bad side, if you do something bad, then bad will come back to you.
Karma is pretty much a state of opinion. Some people believe in karma, others don't. Mr. Kane is a strong believer in karma. He always tries to do good things to keep his karma in balance.
As the group discussion continued we sort of got into the topic of karma being used with selfishness. Do you do good deeds, just so you can get good back? Sounds sort of selfish right? Katlyn Goldwood brought up a good point, or at least I think so, she said something around the lines of "sometimes its hard not to be selfish because almost everything you do can be turned around into something selfish" I think if you are one of the strong believers in karma then it seems like you do good deeds just so you can get the good back to you. Maybe you didn't intentionally go into that good deed with being selfish in your mind, you were just subconsciously being selfish. And honestly, I don't think that is a bad thing. If you are being the slightest bit selfish but you are helping someone or making someone's day better, I don't think being selfish matters that much at all. As humans its hard for us not to be selfish. Its genetically installed into us, maybe installed more intensely in others but we all have it. Being selfish is a bad thing also, don't get me wrong. But its being selfish when its seriously only you in mind. If that even makes any sense at all.
Anyways, there's my little rant about karma. Oh, and for the record, I do believe in karma.
You don't have to agree with me "I don't care what you think, as long as you think"
Karma is as most of you know "what goes around come around"
Karma is like a person, in my mind at least. Karma has a good side and a bad side. There is good karma and bad karma. In other words, if you do something good, then good will come back to you. Or for the bad side, if you do something bad, then bad will come back to you.
Karma is pretty much a state of opinion. Some people believe in karma, others don't. Mr. Kane is a strong believer in karma. He always tries to do good things to keep his karma in balance.
As the group discussion continued we sort of got into the topic of karma being used with selfishness. Do you do good deeds, just so you can get good back? Sounds sort of selfish right? Katlyn Goldwood brought up a good point, or at least I think so, she said something around the lines of "sometimes its hard not to be selfish because almost everything you do can be turned around into something selfish" I think if you are one of the strong believers in karma then it seems like you do good deeds just so you can get the good back to you. Maybe you didn't intentionally go into that good deed with being selfish in your mind, you were just subconsciously being selfish. And honestly, I don't think that is a bad thing. If you are being the slightest bit selfish but you are helping someone or making someone's day better, I don't think being selfish matters that much at all. As humans its hard for us not to be selfish. Its genetically installed into us, maybe installed more intensely in others but we all have it. Being selfish is a bad thing also, don't get me wrong. But its being selfish when its seriously only you in mind. If that even makes any sense at all.
Anyways, there's my little rant about karma. Oh, and for the record, I do believe in karma.
You don't have to agree with me "I don't care what you think, as long as you think"
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Stepping it up
I have almost reached the 4 1/2 week mark of school and I have definitely realized that this year is a lot harder than last year. I really need to step it up if I am going to get my straight A's that I am hoping to get. English used to be an easy breeze for me, but now that I am in honors things have definitely gotten hard, seems like I actually have to try hard this year. AP World History has shown me the importance of studying and actually reading! If I don't read and take good notes on the chapter then my grade can seriously drop. The good thing is test make ups. Which I need to definitely work on! Chemistry has been a pain in the butt, not going to lie, it's definitely not being good to me. Math is real easy, maybe I will go into honors next year. I can't this year because my whole schedule would get all messed up, so I don't really want to risk it. French is definitely getting challenging even though Mme McMullin has been a lot chiller than she was last year. Theatre isn't very fun at the moment just because I don't like the monologues I am currently working on. I wish I had more time to actually find a legitimate monologue. Seminary is seminary, I am finally starting to warm up to my class even though some people do not know how to not be annoying as crap. Oh and lunch is pretty good, I like the people me, Jenna and Kayla hang out with everyday. I do wish that Gunnar and that little group still had my lunch because I miss those boys. This week at school is going to be pretty hectic. I've got a hard english vocabulary quiz, and a french quiz tomorrow. Another vocabulary quiz for english on Thursday and a packet it due. Homework is not fun. Not at all.
With my mother entering into her last 4 weeks of her pregnancy, I can only really describe her in one word: Bipolar. Emotions running around up the walls! One minute she is my best friend and the next I get in trouble for not having my earring on right. I guess that's the price you pay for having a pregnant mother. But wait it's not MY fault she's pregnant, so I shouldn't have to pay a price ha ha.
I really want to get out of Arizona for a while. I want to go with a few friends and just get out for a weekend. I seriously just need a break from reality for a little while. I want to do something that I am going to remember in 50 years and smile about it. I wish I was about 1 year older so I could get my license in like two months. Everyone tells me I should be happy I am so young but right now my cons are stacking up higher than my pros.
I want to hang out with new people, new exciting people that know how to have fun (my kind of fun). I wish there were cool people in my neighborhood who aren't all druggies, that would be nice.
Current annoyance: Freshman & JV football players. They are so freaking cocky I cannot stand it. I want to shoot them all every single time I see them.
With my mother entering into her last 4 weeks of her pregnancy, I can only really describe her in one word: Bipolar. Emotions running around up the walls! One minute she is my best friend and the next I get in trouble for not having my earring on right. I guess that's the price you pay for having a pregnant mother. But wait it's not MY fault she's pregnant, so I shouldn't have to pay a price ha ha.
I really want to get out of Arizona for a while. I want to go with a few friends and just get out for a weekend. I seriously just need a break from reality for a little while. I want to do something that I am going to remember in 50 years and smile about it. I wish I was about 1 year older so I could get my license in like two months. Everyone tells me I should be happy I am so young but right now my cons are stacking up higher than my pros.
I want to hang out with new people, new exciting people that know how to have fun (my kind of fun). I wish there were cool people in my neighborhood who aren't all druggies, that would be nice.
Current annoyance: Freshman & JV football players. They are so freaking cocky I cannot stand it. I want to shoot them all every single time I see them.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Updates and such.
I have not done a blog in quite a long while, so I thought I should start up again, with some updates from school and life and such.
So this year, since I am the exact opposite of fit and/or active, I decided I am going to join clubs! Well really only two, Anytown and Extra Mile Interact. I really like both of the clubs I have joined because they both are focused on things that I have a strong opinion one. Anytown-Diversity and Interact-Volunteer work.
One thing I am really looking forward to about Anytown is the chance of going to Our Town! I think that it would really be a life changing experience, just from hearing what my friends have said about it. And I am also very excited about Interact just not for one specific reason.
I am also currently in a challenge with TJ Chapman to see who can get a some what noticeable 6 pack first because we are both very unfit and eat like pigs but remain skinny because our bodies are psycho.
Music has been really affecting my mood each day, original right? But seriously the song I listen to before I go to school will be stuck in my head all day and will in the long run affect my mood on the day.
In french class I got a new name... it is Sophie! haha This is how we have to write our names on our papers RICHARDSON Sophie and then our date is written 31/8/10
Pretty cool eh?
Okay so in anytown we were talking about worries and I pretty much figured out that I am worried about a lot more stuff than I had originally thought I was. I'm scared that what I'm doing won't be worth it.
I am glad that this year, with friends, I am making some new ones, reuniting with old ones and unfortunately drifting from close ones. I really like having the lunch I have, there aren't as many annoying people that make me want to shoot myself whenever I even glance at them, except my stalker kid, sometimes he just creeps me out and makes me want to go hide in a sewer.
There are a couple updates for you I guess haha.
Oh & my mother is due in 6 weeks with the vortex child!:)
So this year, since I am the exact opposite of fit and/or active, I decided I am going to join clubs! Well really only two, Anytown and Extra Mile Interact. I really like both of the clubs I have joined because they both are focused on things that I have a strong opinion one. Anytown-Diversity and Interact-Volunteer work.
One thing I am really looking forward to about Anytown is the chance of going to Our Town! I think that it would really be a life changing experience, just from hearing what my friends have said about it. And I am also very excited about Interact just not for one specific reason.
I am also currently in a challenge with TJ Chapman to see who can get a some what noticeable 6 pack first because we are both very unfit and eat like pigs but remain skinny because our bodies are psycho.
Music has been really affecting my mood each day, original right? But seriously the song I listen to before I go to school will be stuck in my head all day and will in the long run affect my mood on the day.
In french class I got a new name... it is Sophie! haha This is how we have to write our names on our papers RICHARDSON Sophie and then our date is written 31/8/10
Pretty cool eh?
Okay so in anytown we were talking about worries and I pretty much figured out that I am worried about a lot more stuff than I had originally thought I was. I'm scared that what I'm doing won't be worth it.
I am glad that this year, with friends, I am making some new ones, reuniting with old ones and unfortunately drifting from close ones. I really like having the lunch I have, there aren't as many annoying people that make me want to shoot myself whenever I even glance at them, except my stalker kid, sometimes he just creeps me out and makes me want to go hide in a sewer.
There are a couple updates for you I guess haha.
Oh & my mother is due in 6 weeks with the vortex child!:)
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