disappointment

yes that has been happening a lot lately.
disappointment in people - the things they have done lately
disappointment in events - things that didn't work out as well as they should have (talent show)
disappointment in school - finals and not doing more
that is one thing i sure don't like to be very often.
it usually takes a lot for me to get disappointed but for some reason lately it has become a lot easier to become disappointed.
on a positive note i guess you could say this disappointment will make me stronger. that i will learn from this. disappointment cannot destroy me, thats for sure. disappointment could only lead me to new adventures with different things and/or people.
also from disappointment you gain a sense of hope. hope that things will turn out well. hope that it will never happen again. hope to be able to overcome any more disappointments along the way.

off of that note.
i realized something today i thought i already realized.
we aren't the same. we don't act the same. we most likely couldn't get back to the place that we were at. we had fun, and i am always here for you. but things just aren't the same. and summer will most likely be the end of it. i hope that things will get better in the far future but the time a part we are having will strengthen us. it will make us realize some of each others faults. for now, we are too different, too different to bring us to a common ground.

and off of that note.
officially only 4 more days of my freshman year left.
this year went by so very quickly. to think i only have three more years to go.
it may sound long for some of you, but to me that seems like in a blink of an eye i will be graduating.
rory graduating helped me realized this. it wasn't so long ago that he was a freshman and his high school career went really fast for me at least.
i cannot wait until summer. this will be the start of a great change in my life.

and off of that note as well.
Katti Smith - thanks for being there, for everything during lunch. you are one of the very few people i can trust with my life and i hope you know that
Sydney Baugh - i'm not quite sure what i am going to do without you. a piece of my life is leaving with you to gilbert. i can't believe you are moving and i don't want you to but i will live and so will you and we will still see each other a lot. you and your family have been my sanity and i am more that grateful for all of you.
Jenny Jensen - even though i haven't even talked to you for that long i know i can talk to you and you will be there to listen. and that is strange because it normally takes a lot for someone to get me to talk to them about my life. (i guess your special) my ears are open for you always. i can't wait until summer. concerts.movienights.chalknight.summer'10!

and now i bid thee adieu